It's been a while, lots going on in my head.....

I haven't posted in awhile. I've had a shitty week and it has ended better than it started. Had counseling today, that seemed to help a little bit....still have dreams and from today's session really need to blog them everyday that I can remember them, she thinks that's a good idea to see if a pattern shows up.

It started last Thursday when Gregg was supposed to come over that night and hang out. He called around 6:00 to say that he fell asleep and that he would be over around 7:00. He called back at 7:30 crying that someone stole his money from his account, so he didn't end up coming over. He said that he would come over the following night which he did... He told me that he would call me either way if he was coming over on Saturday or not and nothing, not a god damn thing!! Of course I waited around for the call, but I did rake a lot of the yard that day. Think I did blog last Saturday about that can't remember and don't feel like going back to check. So there was no call on Saturday so I kind of thought maybe I would get a call on Sunday, nothing yet again. That afternoon I started to feel really crappy, craps etc. I took it easy most of the day, walked Jet a little bit but pretty much stayed in front of the TV most of the day. Went to bed that night and woke up sick to my stomach Monday morning so I called Sue to let her know I wasn't going to make to work. Needless to say that my period kicked my ass this month and I can only think that stress had a lot to do with it. Tuesday I was still not feeling all that well but went to work anyway. By Wednesday was feeling much better physically but emotionally is another story. Went to the gym with Kel and did weights and then went home and ended up walking Jet about hour and an half that night (not all at once but we went for 2 walks). That's kind of when something snapped in my brain and since then Star and I have been getting up in the mornings and walking Jet and I'm walking her at night as much as possible. Except tomorrow morning, I'm not getting up at 4:00 am to walk with Star...I'll walk when I get out of bed whenever that happens to be. I'm heading to bed shortly I'm fading fast and still need to walk Jet one more time tonight. Mom's supposed to come down tomorrow and go clothes shopping to get a few new things to go to Utah with and I'm hoping that she can buy me new sneakers for the gym. Sunday Star and I are walking in the 5K in Keene, that should be fun and something I've never done before, remember all those firsts that I've been taking.

Karen backed out of the Bret Michaels concert. Somethings up with her but she hasn't spilled as to what it is so I'll let her come to me when she's ready. My other friend Kelly and I are going to go instead, I can't wait, Kelly and I have never really hung out but she knows most of what's been going on with me so I can fill her in on all the details. I'm really hoping that this concert is mostly about the music not the stupid show from VH1, which I've mentioned before, he is such a putz to do that not once but twice....

The NIN tickets have not gone on sale yet, is this a some kind of test? This is driving me crazy!!!

Ok, I'm off to walk Jet one last time and then to bed. Have hopes to get stuff done tomorrow so we'll see how I feel when I wake up tomorrow.