Everything Happens for a Reason......

I'm not sure how I had or remembered any dreams at all last night since I didn't sleep very well. The wind kept shaking the windows so bad that Jet kept standing up to see what was happening. Of course her doing that shook the bed and woke me up too.

I have thought about the parts of the dreams I could remember. I thought about the dreams all the way to work and had a lot of witty things I was going to say but that was this morning and this is tonight.

The first one, was about modification agreements, well, that has to do with work, I believe. In the dream, I was holding one in my hand and reviewing it....no one seemed to be around, I was standing up and I'm not positive, but I think I was at work.

The only thing I can think of is that this is something new that I just started doing on a more permanent basis. My work is great. I would love to think that it has to do with work but I'm sure that is not the case. I'm sure there is something behind the meaning of modification. Yeah let's not go there, I've already had all the modification in my life that I can handle and/or want. I'm sure the Gods see differently, aren't they funny.

The second one about Marilyn Manson. Star, don't start with me about rotting my brain by listening to this kind of music.....

Now, anyone that reads this part will not understand where I'm coming from, Star maybe - I am not a stalker - I don't know what you are talking about, look there's a pancake on your head....you had to be there.

A member of the rock band Marilyn Manson used to play guitar in the 'live' Nine Inch Nails band. I know that I am very disappointed that he has gone back to playing guitar for Marilyn Manson, especially when Nine Inch Nails will be touring this summer.

In the dream, I was sitting at a computer (not sure where) and I was talking with someone (don't know who, don't know if male or female) and I was saying how pissed I was that Jeordie White (aka Twiggy Ramirez) would not be touring with Nine Inch Nails.

I do know that this part of the dream could have a lot do with Gregg, we would talk about this kind of stuff for hours...No, it's not any of your cup of tea, but we enjoyed it or at least I thought so....but I'm learning, what the fuck do I know!!!!

So, we'll see what happens tonight in my dreams, I'm going to head to bed early. I was supposed to have a visitor, but I see that's not going to happen....so yes, I head to bed disappointed. Everything happens for a reason??? I'm loosing faith in that statement because if everything happened for a reason, then why does it make me feel so shitty...